Ah. Life. It's bittersweet sometimes, right? Yesterday was HC's graduation and somewhere between racing to go to a billion receptions, regaling my friend Jess with my immense knowledge of life, or simply rating the various cakes we were eating, I fully realized how for granted I take people. As the evening progressed and I spent time with this whole network of friends I had accumulated, I was hit with overwhelming sadness when I accepted that some of them I would never see again. Amazing, amazing people that I allowed into my life and seemingly a split second later they were exiting.
And it's not just the seniors that are making me sad for their departure. Now that it's summer, it means that all of my cool college friends are going away and I'm left here to fend for myself in the big H-town. I'm obsessed with these people right now. I've gotten all caught up in immersing myself into this community and am having it taken away from me. Suddenly, I'm taken away from this pillowy goodness and returned to my life where it's me and Lou against the world. I don't think I was ready to leave this support system and venture out by myself. At a time where I'm more separated from my family than ever, I could have used a few more weeks of school. Maybe a few more months!
In the end, I'm sure that the summer is going to be good for me. Just as important as dependence on people is, I still need to make sure I can take care of myself. All the same, I miss my peeps terribly! It just isn't the same without them. What am I going to do without going to class everyday and begging Trace to let us out early? Or doing quote of the day in Apostle Paul? Or sleeping through Intermediate II? As stressful as this year was for me, I accidentally fell in love with it somewhere along the line. I fell in love with the people, the classes, and the atmosphere. It's heartbreaking to see that go.
So, here I sit, alone in my house and wallowing in my own self despair. I've already watched an episode of Buffy today. I *really* need to get to work on some web design. I have another chapter to write in my story... I absolutely need to get a start on my summer classes. But, I'm rather content on looking fondly at what's been an amazing year.
Why does it feel like I'm the one who graduated?!
To all of my friends out there: I love you. Miss you. And I can't WAIT to see you again. I hope you all of awesome experiences over the summer and know that you are all in my prayers. Without you, I am nothing. Thank you for your love and support!
And it's not just the seniors that are making me sad for their departure. Now that it's summer, it means that all of my cool college friends are going away and I'm left here to fend for myself in the big H-town. I'm obsessed with these people right now. I've gotten all caught up in immersing myself into this community and am having it taken away from me. Suddenly, I'm taken away from this pillowy goodness and returned to my life where it's me and Lou against the world. I don't think I was ready to leave this support system and venture out by myself. At a time where I'm more separated from my family than ever, I could have used a few more weeks of school. Maybe a few more months!
In the end, I'm sure that the summer is going to be good for me. Just as important as dependence on people is, I still need to make sure I can take care of myself. All the same, I miss my peeps terribly! It just isn't the same without them. What am I going to do without going to class everyday and begging Trace to let us out early? Or doing quote of the day in Apostle Paul? Or sleeping through Intermediate II? As stressful as this year was for me, I accidentally fell in love with it somewhere along the line. I fell in love with the people, the classes, and the atmosphere. It's heartbreaking to see that go.
So, here I sit, alone in my house and wallowing in my own self despair. I've already watched an episode of Buffy today. I *really* need to get to work on some web design. I have another chapter to write in my story... I absolutely need to get a start on my summer classes. But, I'm rather content on looking fondly at what's been an amazing year.
Why does it feel like I'm the one who graduated?!
To all of my friends out there: I love you. Miss you. And I can't WAIT to see you again. I hope you all of awesome experiences over the summer and know that you are all in my prayers. Without you, I am nothing. Thank you for your love and support!
posted by Whit at 10:59 AM
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